Vancouver, husband hunting and a date!

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

This last weekend I went with some friends to Vancouver, Canada. It was a fun trip, got to see the usual sights (Stanley Park, Canada Place, Gastown, Chinatown, suspension bridge, etc). It's a neat town, with oh-so-many tall apartment buildings cluttering up the skyline. I actually think Seattle is prettier as a whole, but it's still cool.

Vancouver is the film capital of Canada, since it's cheaper than the US, lots of TV shows and movies use it year-round, from Grey's Anatomy to the X-Men franchise. While we were walking around town, we stumbled upon two movies shoots. Cool, huh? One was for a small film called "Battle in Seattle", about some hippie protesters against the WTO. I know, yawn. The other film was Fantastic Four 2. They were filming on a street corner and none other than the Human Torch himself, Chris Evans, was there. I stood in the cold for half an hour to catch a 2 minute glimpse of him (clothed, unfortunately). Well worth it. What a hottie. Yum.

We went to some bars on Saturday night while we were in Vancouver. There's this really cool gay one called Celebrities. Highly recommended. The music is mainly techno, but they sneak in some pop tunes every now and then, which is much appreciated by Germy. It had actually been a while since Germy had gone on the prowl. I was unofficially hunting for a Canadian husband. But I was not only unsuccessful, but it turns out one of the guys I was talking up turned out to be MARRIED... to another man! FUCK! I really need to train myself to look for rings on fingers now. Sheesh, that's like a totally new instinct I need to develop. Maybe this whole gay-marriage thing isn't as good as I thought it would be. Geez...

The next day we went to the aquarium (SO cool, I'm such a science geek), ate some yummy Chinese food and made our way back to gloomy Seattle. Oh well...

I just came back from my first real date since I got here. I went out with a guy who works at the same company I do. He just graduated last Spring, so he's effectively 4 fucking years younger than me. Shit. Anyways, we met via this social networking site called Facebook, which I fucking love btw. Very fast, very simple, very efficient. He looked decent enough and was actually quite witty and funny. I did not disappoint either I might add. We finally met up today and, wow, he was just so much prettier in person, definitely not photogenic. He's pretty fit and has a wicked sense of humor. We had a pretty good time over dinner, but there was this nagging feeling that maybe he's just too young for me (I do like older guys, you know). I'd totally go out with him again and anyways the worst thing that could come out of this would be a new friend, so that's cool.

On another completely different note... I'm heading to Puebla on Thursday for that faux-wedding and hopefully will be hooking up with The Ex. Will I have the guts to set things straight with him? Do I really want to? So many questions, so little time... Happy Thanksgiving!

I know a boy

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

I was talking with a friend the other day on the phone. Let's call this friend Psesito. Oops, that's his real name. Sorry, I'm sooooo bad at discretion. Anyways, we were chatting about him visiting his boyfriend in California (was I not supposed to say you were gay? I always get mixed up... anyways, sorry in advance... again... hehe). I actually met his boyfriend, M, back in July here in Seattle. This kid was genuinely a very sweet guy, his lesbian friends were wickedly cool, but this boy was just plain nice. I really wanted to find something to dislike about him (resentment comes so naturally to me), but I just couldn't. Yes, he's that type of boy. The point is M and P were both really happy. Until M moved away to California, for academic purposes.

 

They're in a long distance relationship now (yes, I told him not to, but what do I know). P went to visit M last week and had mixed feelings about the trip. It seems P wants to go to the next level with the relationship, and M was hesitant. God, this is why I hate trusting other people with my feelings. I remember once asking a boy to take things further, and I also remember him telling me no and how it broke my heart to pieces. Yes, that episode in my life lead to much emotional growth, but even trying to remember what it felt like, which I did when P told me his story, brought back so much hurt I just shut it out. I was so naive and foolish back then. I thought "holding a hand was like holding a heart", which isn't so. You can never be sure about the impression you have on other people's lives, you can only hope it's meaningful. 

 

Anyways, I just want to say that I think it was enormously brave of P to ask M, point-blank, about their relationship. It's especially hard to ask those tough questions, especially when you're not sure about the answers. P and M have lots more to talk about and they're probably finding out that sometimes love just isn't enough by itself. You somehow also need time and circumstance (as if just getting love wasn't hard enough). I totally told P to dump M. I know, how cynical is that? Anyways, I guess it's just my instinct. When things look shaky, I cut and run. It's harder to get hurt that way. Maybe it's the wrong thing to do. Maybe it's right. It's just what Germy does. And so far, I've lived to tell about it. And I've also been of the philosophy of "If you love something, let it go. if it comes back to you, it was meant to be. If it doesn't, look for a better guy, hello". P says he'll stand by M. As always, I wish him luck.

 

Thinking about M and P's predicament, I reflected on my own current situation. Right now I have no real relationship with The Ex. We get together sporadically and have lots of sex and cuddle and talk. I have a wonderful time with him, I really think he's my mate. Does he think I'm his mate? I'm not completely sure. When I'm with him, I'm sure he loves me very much. When we're having sex, I'm sure he's missed me terribly. But those moments are few and far between. And so far his feelings for me have never been enough to actually inspire him to do anything to bring us together (he lives in London, I in Seattle, remember?). Isn't there a contradiction there? Clever readers will say "Yes".

 

In these last few months, our contact has intensified. We've seen each other more often, we've talked on the phone a lot more. My brother has even asked me repeatedly is we're back together. And the truth is we're not. I just haven't given it much thought. I've purposely been dedicating a lot of time to work and my new life here than to anything remotely related to relationship stuff. I have gotten the urge to look for someone new, but my closer communication with The Ex has sort of distracted me from that. Is it fair? Of course not. Now I know why I didn't want to think about this.

 

Will I wait for you? Of course I will. But wait for what? Should I be braver than I am and ask him? "What is it that I would be waiting for" I'm seeing him in 10 days. It would be a perfect opportunity. Will I be too scared? Maybe. Especially if I already know what his answer will be. Maybe it will set me free.

Wow

Saturday, November 11, 2006

This week, Mexico City passed a law to allows civil unions for same-sex couples. It also allows for civil unions between heterosexual couples. Weird. The PRD (crazy AMLO's party) completely supported it, and the ruling party, PAN, completely opposed it, as did President Fox and President-elect Calderon.

What the fuck? What am I doing here in Washington state? The state that just recently denied same-sex couples the right to marry?!?!?! How can a Latinamerican country be more socially progressive?????? It just boggles the mind...

In the mean time, I'm looking for a chilango husband... ;-)

New post on a new laptop

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

This is my first post on my brand new laptop! Yep, Germy has been without a computer for almost 5 months! Yikes! Maybe now I can get to writing more frequently... when I get internet at my home I guess, haha.

Speaking of home, I'm currently looking for a new one. A friend of mine (girl) and I are looking for a house to rent here in Bellevue. I would really prefer a place close to work. Anyways, we've seen a couple of them, but so far we haven't signed anything. All we want is a huge house (the better to have parties in), with huge rooms (the better to fit big beds in), huge closets (the better to hide in), a huge modern kitchen (the better to make my roomie cook for me in), a huge yard and a huge garage... oh, and really small rent. Does that sound unreasonable? I think not!

Anyways, I'm heading to Puebla (south central Mexico) for Thanksgiving. I'm heading to the wedding of of the sister of a friend mine whom I met in London. I'm not that close to the bride, but I'm going to see my old London chums, and to hook up with The Ex and fuck like bunnies, ha. I'd always wanted to visit Puebla, everyone always told me it was a very beautiful city. We'll see.

The US mid-term elections were held yesterday. And the Democrats now have control of the US congress! Hoo-ray! Thank goodness fucking stupid Americans finally got the message that Bush sucks and that his handling of the government (not just the war in Iraq) has been arrogant and irresponsible. FINALLY!!! Other highlights:

  • Homophobic senator Rick Santorum lost his job as the No. 3 Republican in the Senate. Hee hee.

  • For the first time ever a same-sex marriage ban failed to pass in a state election. Who knew Arizona could be so hip??? Granted, it passed in all other states where it was put up to vote, but a it's a decent start.

  • Donald Rumsfeld resigned (i.e. was fired) from his job as Defense Secretary. At last!

  • The abortion ban did not pass in Idaho


All in all great news for liberals! What a great Election Day...